having no definite aim or purpose, from at random and great speed this carelessly, haphazard alteration of life comes to us with impetuous speed. Which in turn forces us to run fast and at times from something sinister...

you can have everything but not have this you have this if you have everything and someone to share it with LOVE reminds me of a picture in picture I gazed upon a time long ago it was hanging in the Nazarene

Went for a ride this morning, it was so cold, i needed it though, needed to feel alive, needed to feel something other than the numbness of this thing called life...

the thing is, your the man, you don't need this job, you have what you need to make it through the storms but the folks under you, and the folks reporting to you do so as such they might be a bit scared of you, not only that, but you didn't get to the point of having the resources to weather the storm without having a commanding presence, so come on now, now you know...

The absolute absurdity of it all seems aimless as we careen around in circles often fruitless, futile even going nowhere, impotent, in a vicious circle. What an inane, inconsequential, ineffective, ineffectual, insignificant, irrelevant, meaningless, needle in haystack, nongermane, nonsensical, not pertinent, on the treadmill, powerless, purportless, remote, silly, stupid, trivial, unavailing, uninteresting, unnecessary, unproductive, unprofitable, useless, vague, vain, worthless things but then I remember things like beneficial, meaningful, pointed, profitable and sensible...

Nose is bleeding again, both sides this time, not the first rodeo but getting worse... don't know, it shouldn't be long now, so much to do though and so little time...why he said, why? seriously, did he not know why? Don't believe it for a second...