if only...

I could sit here forever and run my fingers through her hair as she sleeps, if only I could listen to each breath she takes, if only I could wipe every tear, if only I could be beside her forever, if only...

MacGyverized

Turned on the ignition this morning at 28 degrees and heard a sound no avid rider likes to hear, whup whuuup, whuuupp, tick, tick, tick. So I'm picking it up at the cabin, no power, no jumper cables but I did have a hemi and a roll or 10/12 romex ;-) A few minutes later with 30 minutes to spare to kickstands up in the shaking cold I had some homemade jumper cables and the motor fired right up ;-)

Time

Once the demons inside have succumbed to the deep dark murky depths of the road, the ride will be over yet the wheels of time will still be spinning in the cold wet winter breeze...

It's not all bad...

Joy = Seeing her smile ;-)

Time to break the cycle, to remove the pain pulsating through the veins but what to do, what to do. Confide in a stranger and ask for advice or stay on the path through the valley of the shadow. Could follow the unofficial approval melancholy list of home remedies that funded many for years or bite the bullet and go back to the hell hole. At this point it just seems like to much work and not enough time to do what needs to be done, too much pain, too much loss, to many unanswered questions and too much light...